10 bucks for 2 weeks.
Lets see.
$0.71 for each day.

And i still have to get my books cuz my tests and all are nearing.

Fine lor.
Fuck them and fail then.





Din't know that someone with red bill can still go party and club and enjoy life.
How nice.
Sick for a month? Can't go work because you're sick?
Then still can go party and club ah?
Nice joke ah.

PUI.

我好怀念以前那股莫名的勇气。

拿起鼓槌，一句“我来打鼓”，就这样，就这样。
没怎么练习就上了台。
双手双脚就随着音乐的节奏，动了起来。
从头到尾，脑袋都是一片空白。

下了台，只有一句话。
“我，做到了。”

我好想把它找回来。
现在的我，害怕所有的一切。
害怕未来，
害怕失败，
害怕犯错。

自己爱的是什么，
自己爱的又是谁，
我毫无头绪。

也许，我已经不再爱任何东西，也不再爱任何人了。
不是我放弃了，
只是我太累了，
无法再爱上什么东西，什么人。

我寻找的只是种安慰吧。
被人拥抱的安慰。
被人疼的安慰。
被人呵护的安慰。

那，因该不是爱吧。

那，不是爱。

那，根本不是爱。





现在的我，也忘了爱到底是什么吧。

感慨。

No. of ladies' push-up do-able: 3 sets of 10.

No. of standard push-up do-able: 2

No. of chin-up do-able: 1/8. LOL

Weak man!

Lets count down.

35 more days.

有一股想哭的冲动。
不知道为了什么。

最后一次不由自主地流泪，也是几年前的事了。
现在更糟。
好闷。
好辛苦。
好痛苦。
好难受。
好难过。

我到底怎么了。。

单纯的想快乐一些，难道是个罪孽？
怎么做都错。
错错错。
我到底该怎么做，你们才会放过我？

Ya right.

It's so fucking tempting to go MIA again..
Maybe it'll be good for me to live in my own world forever.

I'm feeling damn weird, damn lost.
=(
I know i shouldn't be bothered by it, but i freaking am.
Cuz i do not want that person to go round crying for sympathy and badmouthing me, making it seems like i'm a damn fucked up bitch when you know, it's not me.
I din't even do anything.
I hate being treated unfairly.
And this is super unfair to me.

I'm just trying so hard to move forward, live my life, be happy from the bottom of my heart.
And you have to crash it down, drag me back to point zero, and then what?
Snigger at me?

You've won.

And I've fucking lost.

Happy now?

I've never ever feel so miserable before...
And crying out loud doesn't even help.

Maybe i'll need more booze.
I shall kill myself with alcohol.

cheers.

Sometimes,
all you need is something to divert you from the hurtings that you feel in your fucking heart.

Fuck you.
I am never, and am not with him.
What the fuck is it that you say I am with him BEFORE?
Fuck your fucking brain and childish fuck up fucktard.
Stop thinking that the whole fucking world is letting you down.
I din't even do such a thing.
My words can't be trusted?
Come on. Stop being such a fucking childish freako. DAMN.
I believe that my words can be trusted more than someone who has the records of fucking sleep, opps sorry no it should be fuck around, lie your way through every single thing, faking such a fucking bogus slang, etc.
You're crap man.
Did i even mention how your way of lying through this and that, faking this and that in NS just to get those fucking excuses, and end up thinking that you deserve them instead of feeling guilty from all those lying, digust me totally?

Pathetic fuck.
I'm feeling damn fucking off already and there you go accusing me again.

Get a life la
FUCKTARD.

I'm fucking pissed man.

I'm so tired.

I think I prefer to be left alone.
Swear off any commitment, I don't need or want any.

I just want to be free.
I just want to do what I want.
I just want nobody there to tell me what to do.

I realised my mistake.
I should get too close.
It's not what i want.

Happy New Year, earthlings.
May 2010 be the world's doom day.
Don't have to bother to make any new year resolution.
Hah.

Just kidding.
That sentence's for me.
2010 will be a great year for everyone elses out there.

Good day, good year.
goodbye.